okay, i'm not writing chapter fourteen tonight, but here i am blogging, because i made up a to-do list and it says "blog" on it, so that's what i'm here for: crossing one line off my list.
it seems kind of little and meaningless on its own, especially if this post ends up going nowhere. (spoiler alert -- i have no plan for where i'm headed with this!) but the thing is, something is something, right?
which is better than nothing.
i didn't make up a huge-ongous list or anything. just a little one to give me a little poke and make me squeak a little and move just a little forward.
why? because i'm obviously getting squat done from ambition! honestly, my one real and meaningful ambition is just to make the people around me happy, and i do a pretty dadgum good job at that, if you ask me.
but i do want to do a thing or two now and again for myself, and this blog is one of them and writing love and realness is another, so i've got to keep nudging myself and reminding me, "hey, claire, one of the people around you is you, and you need to do a thing or two now and again to make her happy too."
not because my yams aren't good enough at making me happy, but because i don't want to take them for granted or make them feel like they've got to work at making me happy because i don't work at it myself.
anyway, that's it for tonight. it's not much, but i'm happier because i did it, and sometimes "not much" is still perfectly well enough.
xoxo,
claire
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