should i blog today, or should i not blog today?
msg has been totally supportive of my weird semi-obsession with breaking my blogging record for the year while also being totally encouraging about me thinking it's a dumb semi-obsession and it doesn't really matter if i do or don't. since he's out and about today and won't get home till later, it does seem like a great opportunity for me to get in some blogging ... but also a great opportunity to relax and chill with all my girlfriends and demonstrate how not completely obsessed i am even though i'm semi-obsessed.
and you know, he'll be very happy if i've blogged something good today and also very happy if i've been chill about it and just had some nice girl time with everyone instead of blogging.
and i think what's important is, he'll be least happy if i blog something i'm not satisfied with just for the sake of blogging and i admit to him that i kind of forced it and ended up with a not-my-best-blogging post as a result.
BUT!
even if he's least happy about the blogging result, he's going to be super-happy to see me after a long day of us not getting to spend time together.
in other words, there's no version of this blogging story that ends with him not smiling at me and giving me a big smooch and asking how my day was and being legit interested in whatever answer i tell him. which is why i'm basically one of the luckiest people in the world. my only real care in life is whether he and the rest of the worthy yams are happy, and that's something i actually have a ton of control over, as compared to whether i'm a maestro at blogging today or not, which is obviously pretty hit or miss. (okay, i'll admit it, miss.)
and while i've been writing this post, i've been thinking it's another boring post about my boring semi-obsession with my post count for the year and i should just let it sit in my post list for him to read later but not actually ever hit the "publish" button because really, who else cares about reading something like this but him?
but then the follow-up question is, who else do i care about reading this post but him, and the answer is, me.
i care about me, right?
so yes, it's a dumb post and yes, i'm semi-obsessed, and yes, when the history of blogging gets written by some anthropologist (or dollollollogist) a thousand years from now, this post for sure in no way is ever going to be mentioned unless it turns out civilization collapses between now and then and the anthropodollollologists only have maybe ten existing blog posts to write their history about and this is one of them, but i'm going to post it because i wrote it for me and i care about me.
and when i'm talking to msg about my day once he gets home, i'll get around to this part and he'll tell me he already read the post on his phone while he was out, and he loved it, and he loves me, and dang if i'm not just absolutely the best blogger and girlfriend ever.
and i feel
so
happy
about that right now.
i'm proud of myself for writing this post even if it's dopey and repetitive, and i'm especially proud of myself for being able to land such an amazing boyfriend, and i'm going to have a blast of a day today, and all of it adds up to me almost for sure being ready, when he gets home, to just unload with joy on him as soon as he gets in the door. it's going to be great, and he's going to love whatever comes out of my mouth the moment i see him and say it.
anyhow, if you're reading this, my point is (haha-snort, what a bunch of hoo-ha that i've had any point as i've been writing this!) whatever kind of day you're having or going to have, figure out some small dumb thing you can do for yourself and then feel proud that you did it.
okay, time for me to get going on a spectacular smashtastic blast of a girls' day.
you have a good one too, okay?
xoxo,
claire
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