personal aesthetic

okay, so at some point maybe a year ago, msg was algoing through youtube videos and comes across this duet by two off-the-beaten-tracks japanese singers and then rabbit-holed his way through some more videos by the one who seemed the more off-the-rails out of the two, a girl named "ano," who's apparently pretty famous in japan for being borderline wacko. he showed me some of her videos and i poked around at some more and then we both sorta forgot about her for a while until this morning a new video of hers shows up in his facebook feed and we watched it and wow, very wacko. the video starts off with her in an industrial-looking apron that looks like it has blood on it, and then it cuts to her looking at one of those anatomical models that shows all the body's organs in cutaway form, and the subtitled lyrics are pretty creepy, but the really freakiest part of the whole deal is that she spends most of the video after that in a giant pink marie antoinette wig, eating stuff. like, ramen noodles, and beef stew with rice, and spaghetti.

and this is how you know this chick is in her own special category of personal aesthetic, because she's just eating stuff, mostly pretty calmly, but the look in her eyes and the way she uses her lips and tongue while getting the food in her mouth is just plain psycho. she's cute and adorable with very soft and gentle features that look like she's maybe a freshman in high school, and in spite of that, she can somehow manage to scare you just by eating food. (the spaghetti especially, because she eats it with one hand. if she was eating with both hands, it would just be weirdly piggish and sloppy, but she's eating it like it's finger food. it's really strange.)

anyway, i sort of feel like i have my own personal aesthetic -- you know, in the way i talk and write and do my hair and stuff -- and sometimes i think i get at least a little borderline edgy. 

but it doesn't take more than one or two ano videos for me to realize, "no, i'm actually pretty normal."